Monday, November 23, 2009
Part II Important Exercise
He said carry a notebook with you (small one) divide the sheet in two. On one side write the Header LOVE IT on the other side write HATE IT. Keep this journal for a couple of weeks. At the end take a look to see where you are spending your energy.
We have to know in life what energizes us, what makes life vital for us. When you find these things DO THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! On the I hate list sure this is stuff you have to do, or at least you tell yourself that - and that is a war I won't fight with people "I Have to ....". Fine for the sake of argument there are things you have to do, but if you have things in your life that fill you with Joy and Energy the shit you "have to do" isn't so bad if you're high on the things you love to do!!!
WHAT THE HELL TRY IT OUT. CAN'T MAKE IT WORSE. You're in charge of making your life better.
LIVE + LAUGH + LOVE + DREAM till you make it come true..
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Part II
When she walked into the room she had such a vitality and dignity (of course it was her house). She is using homeopathic remedies, diet and prayer to heal herself. She couldn't shake my hand because of her open wounds and she had pads under her feet to absorb the fluid and to cushion the pain from walking. She said, "I may not look well but I believe you heal spirit, soul to body and I'm healed on the inside."
She wasn't the slightest bit self conscious and spoke with conviction that was heart felt and powerful. I don't relay this story to say don't feel sorry for yourself or as a means to make my on search or path trivial. I tell it because of how profound the message "we heal from the inside" is. The outside or physical may show symptoms but it is truly about finding the internal connections, those wounds are the ones we are trying to find and start the healing process. Life gives us "problems" for which we start our search for healing but like any home renovation once you start you go deeper and further finding pieces or rooms to work on.
Each pain can become our passion, we learn lessons to teach not only ourselves but to provide mirrors for others. This spit fire, little petite woman, who is barely over 50 faces her circumstances and healing of with energy and certainty that only someone of heart and faith could. I will not soon forget her or the lessons she has taught me.
Look at your wounds, pull back the layers and let the healing begin from the inside out.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Monday, November 16, 2009
Part II Challenge
So here is the new challenge: stay aware of what are the behaviors, thoughts, beliefs, social norms that don't work and then focus on seeing them daily and letting them go. My teacher wrote in here comments that letting go of fear is the last thing we will need to let go of. Wise as always. That I think seems like the marathon of letting go, but I have already run a 1/2 marathon so ....
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Part II Trying to get it Right
I am taking a class about Success and how to achieve long term success. It is a good class and it has some good exercises to help an individual look back to see pattern and gain insights. My issue is, I went in trying to prove something, being competitive and this is really about self esteem. I have been taking the right steps for me in my personal life. I am living my life in the way I feel self directed to do. What I forgot is to stop watching the person next to me as a means to measure myself. Each of us must live the way we see fit, learning as we go. We are all here to learn different lessons, work through patterns, so comparing is the wall you do not want to run into. I am looking inside and looking for my true measure of a "success". The road blocks, the mental crashes I have only serve to remind me of my drive to be true to myself. In the end, for me, I answer only to myself, (Oh and the credit card companies).
Where is your inner voice directing you? What emotions churn inside?
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Part II
I saw this quote tonight and I thought far be in from me to argue with the great Joseph Campbell but for me it is both. To me everything in our lives has meaning, if we will but look. I believe that in every moment our soul is engaged in a dialogue with our Higher source and the energy wave of this planet and the collective conscious. We are in the process of experience being alive by being aware of this communication because it helps us as individuals become aware of all the aspects of oursleves. When I get into an arguement with another I may be having an opportunity to state a belief about myself and thus become aware of this aspect. So I seek meaning because in finding the meaning I experience being alive.
What speaks to you in your life? What do you notice? What draws your attention? Pay attention what you notice? Your Soul is speaking to you!
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Friday, November 6, 2009
Part II
I sent my check for India yesterday. I spoke with J who is in charge of the trip and she was great. I explained I am having some strange screaming inside my head saying "noooo don't go" "are you crazy?" (you get the idea) but as we talked I said I have learned that the voice inside that I should be listening to doesn't scream, the scream is fear, my soul speaks in a peaceful voice. My ego is the one putting up the fight, (it holds all my cognitive belief patterns). She told me I was in the right place and I appreciated her encouragement.
Therefore, I am off to Thailand and India in the beginning of the year. The big question is why? The answer is; I hope to know by the time I get back. I am compelled to go so I am going to follow the call and see where it takes me.
In addition to the trip I am taking a class as I am taking steps toward aligning my work life with what is driving me inside. I watch friends these days I see a lot of stress and strain on relationships. I think this stems from our attempt to reveal ourselves with what we have buried to long and to try to make or find meaning in our lives. I believe that we're all frightened that our circumstances may change or worse stay stagnant. You have to be willing to gamble the devil you know for what might be behind curtain number two or door number one.
It all comes down to becoming comfortable being uncomfortable and having the courage to face the loss for the opportunity to be more, trusting all will turn out. It's a leap of faith so you can jump, step or wait for the God of your knowing to push you. But know this, if there is an urge inside, a soft whisper you think to ignore, look out - these times they are a changing.
Do you know your special gifts? Write a piece using the prompt, God gave me the ability... My special gift is .... I feel alive when I....
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Part II Day 13
In letting go of some of my things I was letting go of parts of me I built as my identity and I have to say it made me sad to let go of these things, but I think what I am grieving is the loss of where and who I have been. It seems so odd to put into words and I‘m not sure I can. I have felt that I was not living to my full potential feeling urges to move forward. I am searching for my cause and I am choosing to let go of where I am in order to move forward to find it. Letting go of my stuff is a physical manifestation of that intention. It is a step toward my intention. My intention is to find what I am most passionate about, and then to live from that place.
What would you do today if money and time were no issue?
Please say a prayer or hold a thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Namaste
K
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Part II Day 7
"I learned this, at least, by experiment; that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours...
If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Now put the foundation under them."
-Henry David Thoreau
Please say a prayer or hold a thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Namaste
K
Monday, October 26, 2009
Pat II Day 6
Chris kept a journal of favorite writings, another influence for me, but the writings are eerie in the messages she left behind. She loved life, she loved us, she was a beautiful person both inside and out. She had a bad temper and a quickness about her. It is such a shame just as she was beginning her own life it ended. One of her journal entries was "better to have lived well then long."
I am grateful to have had her as a sister, for even though I only had her for 15 years she still impacts my life today. Happy Birthday Chris. We love and miss you.
Tell someone today how much they mean to you. LIVE WELL! LOVE OFTEN! EMBRACE LIFE!
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Part II Day 5
I forgot that my concerns were we concentrated on the mind, or just the emotions and that all of these emotions, thoughts, life occurrences are just the way our soul, this to often unconscious essences, is using to try to be heard. I will call and clarify what else I need to learn, as I choose to make sure whoever I am working with is safe and in the capable hands of a professional who can protect their legal rights and offer the best resources to best assist them. However, I do know that I have helped people reach a better understanding of themselves because I listened to their soul and hopefully gave them tools to listen as well. I don't know if I think I am a success for there is more I wish to do, but I do know I am not a failure, as usual I am listening with my heart and doing it my way and trust me when I say that is not easy.
What is Success to you? Are you successful? What are you Passionate about? Where does that passion spring from?
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Friday, October 23, 2009
Part II Day 3
My lessons from this sweet natured young man outside of role modeling is, being open to your calling, acting from your heart with this understanding, and then following the path laid out from your beliefs. He said, "It can't be wrong if it comes from your heart."
My teacher tells me I will be a teacher when I claim it. I was grateful to meet an example of such a young person claiming it, especially around a spiritual calling.
What calls you that you have left unclaimed? Can you see any role models around you? Embrace what is in your heart
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Part II Day 1
I took a long weekend with friends - good friends - the kind that last a lifetime. The long weekend I took was to my family farm. The farm (no longer a working farm) has been in the family since the 1870's. While there we did a burial ritual (a suggestion from my Teacher- thanks P) . Rituals for me are used to express an intention a way to say to your higher power and to yourself this is my desire, a way of both opening and closing a door for progress in that direction. I believe we are in a time of transition, in our country, in the world and most significantly to ourselves. My way of dealing with transition and marking important stages is ritual. In this one we buried items that represent something we want to let go of. We then buried something we wanted to see grow. It is always interesting for me to see if the ritual marks the beginning or end of a process. Sharing this , was moving.
Today in this moment I feel so lucky. I had a great and blessed trip to St. Louis and really feel like I am moving forward in a positive direction. There was a brief piece on the news tonight that said psychologist were suggesting young people should be encouraged towards more self discovery. I believe that with all the turmoil in the world we are all being asked to explore what is true happiness and self-fulfillment. That is certainly what I am looking to understand within myself but also seek to understand in others.
What would you bury to represent something to grieve and are willing and ready to let go of? What seeds of intentions would you plant to see grow?
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Day 30
I am including in my entry today a piece I wrote to myself as an exercise during a preparatory writing workshop for Africa. I am publishing it now because it is a fitting ending for part one of this process and the beginning of step 2. It is difficult to publish this piece because I fear it will be taken the wrong way.
This is a goodbye letter and I guess the first interesting part for me is that it is with great difficulty that I write a good bye letter. I have always since the death of both S and C been afraid to write such a letter fearing my physical death. It is a wonder to me in some ways that I would hold this fear because I truly feel I have died hundreds of times in this lifetime already.
Having said that, this prep time before Malawi has been about me cleansing purging the old decayed internal parts and I have found this does not just mean the waste from my body.
So I will say goodbye and die again.
Goodbye O, you were the first love of my life and I loved you in only the way a young girl can. I was 20 and thought you hung the moon. Goodbye to that young woman who stood on the alter, in sacred ritual. I mourn the death of that young woman with love in her eyes and hopes and dreams in her heart.
Goodbye to the tough drinking and smoking Karen who built walls and blocked pain trying to be what she thought she should be as oppose to being who she is. I love her. She was fun and funny, profane but no less loving- I admired her toughness but she never really had the thick skin for it. I feel the pain she felt at not liking her own actions.
I say goodbye to family obligations. Don’t get me wrong to all of those of you in my family. I am saying goodbye and cut the chains of straddling two worlds never truly letting go. That is my fault I blame no one. I just never could figure what I was supposed to do and what I realize now is that what I want to do gets walled up in what I am suppose to do. So the picture in my head is of myself clinging desperately to your outstretched hands when you have never gripped on to me but the other way around.
Good bye J
I love you – I say good bye to the part of me that clings to you. I finally picked a good and decent man and I don’t know how to be in relationship. Not sure what to ask for or how to get it and that leaves us incomplete.
Good bye to pain and guilt, and good bye to running not unlike Forest Gump I have run so long with my head down I have no idea where I am. Where am I? Good bye to that question.
Good bye to Homeline.
I’m looking for better pay and more fulfillment. Take the needle out of your own eye because with the one in mine I can’t see yours.
Good bye Bay area
You are beautiful but like a sexy man who cheats you are not worth the price I have to pay.
My eyes are forward and I have dropped off my back pack it was just too heavy - I see an opening and I am preceding forward .
So it is on to step two making the dream/my plan come true. It is off to Thailand and India.
What's your Dream?
Progress:
Made an appt. for an advisor
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Day 29
I remembered after he had gone to bed how much I wrote when I was younger, and how important my writing was as an outlet. I'm still writing today.
I will be seeing a Holy woman tomorrow, I seek her counsel in order to help clear blocks from my path. Interesting I meet with her on day 30.
Do you remember what sparked your interest when you were a young child? Does it still hold your interest today?
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Monday, October 12, 2009
Day 28
I also had the chance to talk about what I love to do and was encouraged. I feel after the last couple of days I am on more solid ground and tonight just topped it off. That's it, I feel good about the work I have been doing and feel the progress.
Who inspires you? Look around they could be sitting next to you.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all. Thanks
Namaste
K
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Day 27
Seriously, I know her story affects me, I hold some of the same worries I have heard for so long. My hope is that I have a better understanding of where some of these fears come from and to know they aren't mine. (Learned can be unlearned) I am not stuck, I have the ability to live a different way. I am working with the full lesson of our relationship and the stories we hold for each other.
What lesson do your parents hold for you? Look at the life story they tell. What patterns are they? Do you hold on to their beliefs? How does that work for you?
Progress not perfection:
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all. Thanks
Namaste
K
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Day 25
I have seen a pattern with my own insecurities in which I will make a task appear overly difficult. I believe I do this so in case I succeed it is an almost heroic feat and if I fail, well, no one could have accomplished so much. (That’s what I like to call insecurities)
Limiting beliefs. What sayings come up time and time again for you in stressful situations?
Progress:
Talked to my teacher for support and advice
Spoke to a counselor for advice.
Namaste
K
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Day 24
Is there anything you flip flopping on? An issue that causes indecision? How do you make a decision?
Progress:
Discussion of website functions and possibilities.
Met and discussed writting workshop.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all. Thanks
Namaste
K
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Day 23
Be good to yourself. None of us can see where the road leads, best to enjoy the journey.
Process:
Sent Resume out.
Found another opportunity for a different position
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all. Thanks
Namaste
K
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Day 22
It was a bit of a rough day today. I let my mind get the better of me. I got worried about the outcome of this process and my plan for next year. I was worried about how I am going to make ends meet and losing my job. ( Not Present. I think we talked about this before)I turned on my computer to get some work done and noticed an old friend emailed me regarding a job opening. I won't take the job but it was nice that the universe/God heard my concern and answered with some reassurance. As I look back on my day I see I got support from several friends as well as my mom, sister and brother. I am reminded today of my roots. So my mind chatter today has given me a chance to see all the support and help I have around me. By the end of this day I feel very fortunate to have family and friends I can speak to that offer encouragement, advise, love and support. Part of my process today has been realizing that next year I will always have people I can count on if I lose my way. A teacher from school says begin where you stand. I stand and begin this journey surrounded by love and support. I am very grateful.
Where do you go when you're worried? Who do you talk to? Notice who's got your back it is some of the most important information you'll ever need.
Process:
Checked into another graduate program.
I checked on Counseling Licensure update: will have answer at the end of the month.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all. Thanks
Namaste
K
Monday, October 5, 2009
Day 21
What do you want to do or be? Is there any block or urge you are ignoring?
Process:
Told the family I may not be around for the first three months of 2010
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all. Thanks
Namaste
K
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Day 20
What would you try if you knew you couldn't fail? What would you do even if you knew you would fail? You never know.
Progress:
Reaching new understandings of self.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all. Thanks
Namaste
K
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Day 19
Take a look around what are you using as a distraction? "I have to...." is a good place to start looking for chains that bind. Real or Imagined?
Progress:
Disclosed more of the plan to the family
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all. Thanks
Namaste
K
Friday, October 2, 2009
Day 18
Process:
I unloaded more clutter yesterday from my storage, things that don’t fit ( I mean that in a variety of ways). When I return to CA I will be unloading a great deal more. I think.
What grounds you? Where do you go or who do you see that helps you find your center? What comes up for you there?
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all. Thanks
Namaste
K
Day 17 You want answers? We've got questions
My boss called me yesterday just to say he thinks I have changed since my trip to Africa. He said I haven't been as "sharp". I rejoiced in that comment as I don't want to be sharp or have sharp edges. Interestingly, I went out tonight with a group of girlfriends and two made similar comments, saying they thought that I had changed since my trip. The girls went on to ask don't I think I have changed. The Universe asking again? I wasn't sure what I thought or felt when they asked which is unusual for me. Another question that I hadn't really thought about . Upon reflection, I think they're right. I realize, I look different as I lost weight because I did a cleanse before I left. My intention was to clear out and clean my body to prepare it to be open to Africa's energy. I wanted to create a new lifestyle, feeding my body and changing my workouts to ones that were less about "no pain no gain" and more about being in tuned, stretching and creating more fluidity. I see that these intentions and choices are creating some internal differences. It is certainly true I am less engaged in my job and more in dialogue with new possibilities. I do know that this blog is a reflection of being in a state of inquiry with the universe and myself. So, I am opening to all the possibilities and attached at this point, to nothing accept change. So I am living in and with questions. Thank God for the questions, we get to challenge old and new beliefs.
Progress Toward the Plan:
Asked the girls to do a writing workshop and to help network, they said yes.
Asked K to help me with a website.
Spoke to friend for references.
If you could make one change in your life today, in order to make it better, what would it be? Live in and with the question.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all. Thanks
Namaste
K
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Day 16 What's this all about again?
I spoke to my teacher today and the conversation allowed me to revisit the reason for this process. (Thank You) What I am trying to do is open doors for myself to see what and how a plan/goal develops for my present and future. Interestingly, I go to local restaurant almost everyday. I sit at the counter and usually wind up talking to anyone of 5 regulars as well as a few others. I realized tonight, that there have been about 3-4 times lately (2 weeks)where I have given up my seat for one of the other guys. What I have said is, "take my seat, it's time for me to go, I've been here long enough.I didn't realize the time" (Are you with me here?). I'm sure I could go own in the way I have been living, (new job) and be pretty content, but I want more.
I have opportunities to go to Thailand and India in the early part of 2010, I have signed up for one class and have two other workshops I am interested in. I am seeing how all of this investigating is shaking then I'll decide what is right for now and what will wait. Either way it is exciting to see what is out there, so all the shedding I am doing create open/empty space (as I was reminded today by my teacher) to fill up to fast would put me back into loaded down.
Connection:
The restaurant.
Process:
Investigated another class sent email for additional info.
Researched a masters program for transition to a new career.
If you get a chance read the comments from my teacher. Click on comments below each section. She is a constant source of support and wisdom.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Day15
The relevance is' after I having thought of this idea two years ago while grad school I am now starting to move toward it. So I am having to clear out old beliefs and old ways of seeing myself to make room for the new. I realize there is a part of me that is fighting that process and wants to stay with the status quo. (FEAR, EGO? humm.) Often when we decide to create change we also create turmoil in order to be OK with the changes. "If it ain't broke don't fix it" is another saying we have been taught. So we break something and then we can create change "fix it".
Not unlike yesterday what I am reminding myself of today is; I don't have to have drama in my life just because I have decide to create change. Having said that, I need to realize that there is a process that I am undergoing and to be aware of the signs and messages coming through which help me make conscious choices.
Connections:
Drama of work, met a woman today who has being doing the same job for 20years, got sick shortly after.
Process:
Did research crossed off one school.
Found a non traditional educational opportunity to help with the plan.
Transition of any kind will cause some movement with your life. Have you noticed any? Can you think of any? Good or bad is not the issue. Bad today could be great tomorrow.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Monday, September 28, 2009
Day 14
Connecting:
The lovely angst of my worry today.
Reading my Reiki Book
While working on the plan watching PBS on the great natural parks in the US (Route)
Progress:
Typed up notes
Researched a couple of helpful classes.
Pay attention to the angst or anxiety that comes up. Take a deep breath and ask it where it's coming from. Follow it down into your gut. Answer the "what if" or what ever it is. This is the get comfortable being uncomfortable part.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Day 13
Connections:
Yoga to my plan and process.
Process:
Learned a new avenue to finance the plan.
What do you tell yourself you fear? Are you holding on to anger, jealosy, ego, pride, fear? What are your concerns? Look them in the eye, breath. What happens? Do they grow bigger or diminish?
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Day 12 What's Your Passion
Connections:
Story to self
Process:
Typed up my notes for plan.
Put schedule together
Give some thought to your passion. What would you do even if no one paid you?
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Friday, September 25, 2009
Day 11
The significance is I am not only listening to my inner voice but choosing to follow it. I knew I needed to go this morning. I knew I should speak with the woman who was doing the yoga class and found out she graduated from the same school I attended and that she is leading a spiritual trip to India. I had an idea for the gentlemen who sponsored the event so I spoke with him and created another connection. I am following my gut impulses. I have to say it is scary. Scary because it seems to work and scary because of where I am being lead (further away from my old Self)
Connection:
The people I met this morning. I am now doing some connecting.
Process:
I spoke with Yoga teacher J and asked her to speak with me regarding the process and the idea, she said she would be happy to.
What is that inner voice urging you to do? What instincts might you be ignoring? Listen today, then chose and watch the results.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Day 10
The automatic car lock for my car went crazy today. It beeped repeatedly without any cause, I thought, and then as the day was nearing its end I realized the lock button was stuck. Interesting, I did not investigate the issue all day, even with all the beeping that was indicating there was a problem. There will be a parallel. (I unstuck the button and the lock)
I have an opportunity to give a lot of my stuff in storage away. A friend in need is getting her own place; she could certainly use a lot of it. I have been thinking, "Why am I holding on to my stuff. Am I waiting to get a place of my own? Perhaps I am looking for a reason to let go of my old stuff?" I have lost some weight and many of my old clothes don't fit. Perhaps that metaphor is true for the stuff, maybe it doesn't fit. I am going to take inventory of what I have this weekend and then decide after Mercury goes direct put should be released. I need time to feel this out. I realize once I get the message I don't have to actually let go of my things but then again maybe I do. I have been attached to it, the memories of it, wanting to reconnect with those old feelings.
Connections:
I met with two women I went to Africa with. Relaying stories.
Process:
Faced old beliefs.
Told of plan today and sharpened my focus. New idea, create a presentation, including board to help refine mission.
What is your mission? Is there anything beeping that you're ignoring? What no longer fits?
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Day 9
I looked up some old papers from my masters program and realized how much work is in front of me and I am reminded it is imperative I love this journey and this planning is to keep me focused. When things are rough go to presences and remember the lessons I am learning now.
Connections:
I saw on FB a guy who was in my class and the work he is doing. It was inspiring. I know his work and love what he is doing.
Progress:
Registered for my class. I am optimistic it will be helpful.
Pulled old papers to use to revamp.
Spoke with a professor for guidance.
Looked up publishers
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Day 8
Connection:
The Reading
Process:
The Reading
Be fully present in just one moment today. Start with feeling your whole body and focus your mind fully into whatever activity you are doing.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Monday, September 21, 2009
Day 7 One step at a Time
I use to believe these types of results only came from a military style practice, "no pain, no gain" I would brutalize my body. Yoga allowed me to see the metaphor of stepping into the flow. Don't get me wrong, yoga can stretch you in ways that become uncomfortable - right up until you breath and believe into it.
Connections:
A man at the dinner today asked me out of no where "are you going to write a book?" (one step at a time)
I saw my reflection today in the window while running.
Progress:
I made an appoinment today.
I sent the blog to three more people
What do you want to do that you think you can't - Break it down one step at a time. Oh and love the steps. Get comfortable being uncomfortable.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Day 6 Revealed
Connections:
Hearing stories that seemed to difficult to hear.
A book being provided to me that is a source of inspiration and learning.
Process:
I have started putting notes together for presentation.
I sent in my registration for Success Built to Last
Take a look in a mirror today and see yourself. You can find your reflection in many places.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Day 5 Acceptance
http://astrology.about.com/od/advancedastrology/p/MercuryRetro.htm
M reminded me that Mercury brings back old issues. It was a good lesson and tops off the week. I was standing in my kitchen tonight when I was struck by some thoughts, old issues and thought yep that’s what it was. Acceptance: I smiled and moved on (deep sigh).
Perhaps this whole quest is just me exploring an old piece of business. I had this idea 2 ½ years ago. (Time will tell)
Connections:
Called T tonight while she was in the middle of telling a story about me… to a group of women (I have never met) who hopefully I will be doing a workshop with.
C called and left a message, new moon tonight. This is a great time to make your intentions known-wrote up my plan (good timing)
Progress:
I wrote the “bones” (my teacher will get that) of my plan for next year.Conferred with J regarding the basic structure of my plan.
I felt great today working with Acceptance, give it a try. Don't forget new moon good time to set intentions.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Friday, September 18, 2009
Day 4: It Is What It Is
Connections:
Herbalist student who is talking to her teacher and hopefully will want to help a contact in Malawi.
At breakfast met a gentleman who is writing an E book on social networking. He gave me some great insights.
Progress:
Met with an friend J and talked about my project and she gave me great advise and direction bolstering my energy. Started building a website and this is making me modify and fine tune my ideas as well as defining my skill set and objectives.
Check in, are you holding to past resentments? Honestly look and see if you are ready to move gently forward to presences - to Fully Live Now. : )
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Nomaste
K
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Day 3 Grateful
H in admissions at a university told me I was focused and had good concepts that had merit. I might customarily downplay this vote of confidence but between us, it felt great to have someone affirm my thoughts. Thank You H you helped me. (Yes, of course I told her)
The second university I called circled back to Malawi, Africa. The Ad woman (Very kind) works with a circle of women and wants information on how to work with other women groups they have been searching. I am going to put her in touch with M from the trip. (Interesting let’s track that and see what come – additional connections)
My work day was stressful but I am working very hard to see the meaning behind my turmoil in an attempt to see the buttons being pushed so I can grow. It is difficult at times to take a step back and see the drama when in it. I fully recognize that I choose to stay in that emotion, and there lies the lesson. Why? What’s behind the emotion?
So I am grateful today, for both the good and the uncomfortable. It’s all about the growth.
Perhaps today you could think about what you’re grateful for and if possible tell someone.
Thanks
Nomaste
K
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Day 2 Story
The second issue today reflected a more of a cognitive thought a co-worker had that he owned. The thought was holding him back. What's connection between the quest and the story. I have to be aware of the thoughts to transform them and write my new story.
Today I looked into two PhD programs. I have a business plan to use to create my own.
I got accepted into a class that I believe will be helpful.
Being stuck in an emotion is a choice.
Say a prayer or hold a positive thought and throw it into the greatest good for all pot.
Thanks
Nomaste
K
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Day 1 Wake Up Call
I was watching the Biggest Loser tonight (let that joke go-ok one time LOSER) and the thing that struck me was something Jillian the trainer said to the largest ever contestant who was struggling through her workout and on the brink of giving up. Jillian told/screamed, she would not support the old Story running through the female contestant's head. Jillian told the contestant to change her mind it was a choice and only she could make it. Her mind is conditioned to the story of failure, or the very least stuck in the image she created of herself.
My Questions:
Does transformation start by changing your mind? How do you change your mind?
What story have you constructed for yourself thus far?
The Search is on!
My Step for today I started the blog and confirmed availablitiy to teach a Reiki class. Sent the blog to supportive friends to keep myself honest. (YIKES)
Nomaste
K
Day 1 The Commitment
This blog is the tool/vehicle I am going to use to explore a plan or strategy for a germ of an idea I have. Over the next 30 days (and yes I did get the idea from the movie Julie/Julia- imitation is the highest form of flattery) I am going to pray everyday, take one action step, and be alert to the messages being sent to me through my life circumstance (that ought to confuse some people) and write my steps and the progress to see if I can pull (myself together) and the universe in to help.
What you out there can do for me today is please pray to the God of your heart for my greatest good, and the greatest good for all. (Oh and do 1 nice thing for someone for no reason at all/change happens one nano second at a time let's be the change)
Thanks
Nomaste
K
PS I'm feeling more then a little exposed