Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Day 16 What's this all about again?
I spoke to my teacher today and the conversation allowed me to revisit the reason for this process. (Thank You) What I am trying to do is open doors for myself to see what and how a plan/goal develops for my present and future. Interestingly, I go to local restaurant almost everyday. I sit at the counter and usually wind up talking to anyone of 5 regulars as well as a few others. I realized tonight, that there have been about 3-4 times lately (2 weeks)where I have given up my seat for one of the other guys. What I have said is, "take my seat, it's time for me to go, I've been here long enough.I didn't realize the time" (Are you with me here?). I'm sure I could go own in the way I have been living, (new job) and be pretty content, but I want more.
I have opportunities to go to Thailand and India in the early part of 2010, I have signed up for one class and have two other workshops I am interested in. I am seeing how all of this investigating is shaking then I'll decide what is right for now and what will wait. Either way it is exciting to see what is out there, so all the shedding I am doing create open/empty space (as I was reminded today by my teacher) to fill up to fast would put me back into loaded down.
Connection:
The restaurant.
Process:
Investigated another class sent email for additional info.
Researched a masters program for transition to a new career.
If you get a chance read the comments from my teacher. Click on comments below each section. She is a constant source of support and wisdom.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Day15
The relevance is' after I having thought of this idea two years ago while grad school I am now starting to move toward it. So I am having to clear out old beliefs and old ways of seeing myself to make room for the new. I realize there is a part of me that is fighting that process and wants to stay with the status quo. (FEAR, EGO? humm.) Often when we decide to create change we also create turmoil in order to be OK with the changes. "If it ain't broke don't fix it" is another saying we have been taught. So we break something and then we can create change "fix it".
Not unlike yesterday what I am reminding myself of today is; I don't have to have drama in my life just because I have decide to create change. Having said that, I need to realize that there is a process that I am undergoing and to be aware of the signs and messages coming through which help me make conscious choices.
Connections:
Drama of work, met a woman today who has being doing the same job for 20years, got sick shortly after.
Process:
Did research crossed off one school.
Found a non traditional educational opportunity to help with the plan.
Transition of any kind will cause some movement with your life. Have you noticed any? Can you think of any? Good or bad is not the issue. Bad today could be great tomorrow.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Monday, September 28, 2009
Day 14
Connecting:
The lovely angst of my worry today.
Reading my Reiki Book
While working on the plan watching PBS on the great natural parks in the US (Route)
Progress:
Typed up notes
Researched a couple of helpful classes.
Pay attention to the angst or anxiety that comes up. Take a deep breath and ask it where it's coming from. Follow it down into your gut. Answer the "what if" or what ever it is. This is the get comfortable being uncomfortable part.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Day 13
Connections:
Yoga to my plan and process.
Process:
Learned a new avenue to finance the plan.
What do you tell yourself you fear? Are you holding on to anger, jealosy, ego, pride, fear? What are your concerns? Look them in the eye, breath. What happens? Do they grow bigger or diminish?
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Day 12 What's Your Passion
Connections:
Story to self
Process:
Typed up my notes for plan.
Put schedule together
Give some thought to your passion. What would you do even if no one paid you?
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Friday, September 25, 2009
Day 11
The significance is I am not only listening to my inner voice but choosing to follow it. I knew I needed to go this morning. I knew I should speak with the woman who was doing the yoga class and found out she graduated from the same school I attended and that she is leading a spiritual trip to India. I had an idea for the gentlemen who sponsored the event so I spoke with him and created another connection. I am following my gut impulses. I have to say it is scary. Scary because it seems to work and scary because of where I am being lead (further away from my old Self)
Connection:
The people I met this morning. I am now doing some connecting.
Process:
I spoke with Yoga teacher J and asked her to speak with me regarding the process and the idea, she said she would be happy to.
What is that inner voice urging you to do? What instincts might you be ignoring? Listen today, then chose and watch the results.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Day 10
The automatic car lock for my car went crazy today. It beeped repeatedly without any cause, I thought, and then as the day was nearing its end I realized the lock button was stuck. Interesting, I did not investigate the issue all day, even with all the beeping that was indicating there was a problem. There will be a parallel. (I unstuck the button and the lock)
I have an opportunity to give a lot of my stuff in storage away. A friend in need is getting her own place; she could certainly use a lot of it. I have been thinking, "Why am I holding on to my stuff. Am I waiting to get a place of my own? Perhaps I am looking for a reason to let go of my old stuff?" I have lost some weight and many of my old clothes don't fit. Perhaps that metaphor is true for the stuff, maybe it doesn't fit. I am going to take inventory of what I have this weekend and then decide after Mercury goes direct put should be released. I need time to feel this out. I realize once I get the message I don't have to actually let go of my things but then again maybe I do. I have been attached to it, the memories of it, wanting to reconnect with those old feelings.
Connections:
I met with two women I went to Africa with. Relaying stories.
Process:
Faced old beliefs.
Told of plan today and sharpened my focus. New idea, create a presentation, including board to help refine mission.
What is your mission? Is there anything beeping that you're ignoring? What no longer fits?
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Day 9
I looked up some old papers from my masters program and realized how much work is in front of me and I am reminded it is imperative I love this journey and this planning is to keep me focused. When things are rough go to presences and remember the lessons I am learning now.
Connections:
I saw on FB a guy who was in my class and the work he is doing. It was inspiring. I know his work and love what he is doing.
Progress:
Registered for my class. I am optimistic it will be helpful.
Pulled old papers to use to revamp.
Spoke with a professor for guidance.
Looked up publishers
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Day 8
Connection:
The Reading
Process:
The Reading
Be fully present in just one moment today. Start with feeling your whole body and focus your mind fully into whatever activity you are doing.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Monday, September 21, 2009
Day 7 One step at a Time
I use to believe these types of results only came from a military style practice, "no pain, no gain" I would brutalize my body. Yoga allowed me to see the metaphor of stepping into the flow. Don't get me wrong, yoga can stretch you in ways that become uncomfortable - right up until you breath and believe into it.
Connections:
A man at the dinner today asked me out of no where "are you going to write a book?" (one step at a time)
I saw my reflection today in the window while running.
Progress:
I made an appoinment today.
I sent the blog to three more people
What do you want to do that you think you can't - Break it down one step at a time. Oh and love the steps. Get comfortable being uncomfortable.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Day 6 Revealed
Connections:
Hearing stories that seemed to difficult to hear.
A book being provided to me that is a source of inspiration and learning.
Process:
I have started putting notes together for presentation.
I sent in my registration for Success Built to Last
Take a look in a mirror today and see yourself. You can find your reflection in many places.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Day 5 Acceptance
http://astrology.about.com/od/advancedastrology/p/MercuryRetro.htm
M reminded me that Mercury brings back old issues. It was a good lesson and tops off the week. I was standing in my kitchen tonight when I was struck by some thoughts, old issues and thought yep that’s what it was. Acceptance: I smiled and moved on (deep sigh).
Perhaps this whole quest is just me exploring an old piece of business. I had this idea 2 ½ years ago. (Time will tell)
Connections:
Called T tonight while she was in the middle of telling a story about me… to a group of women (I have never met) who hopefully I will be doing a workshop with.
C called and left a message, new moon tonight. This is a great time to make your intentions known-wrote up my plan (good timing)
Progress:
I wrote the “bones” (my teacher will get that) of my plan for next year.Conferred with J regarding the basic structure of my plan.
I felt great today working with Acceptance, give it a try. Don't forget new moon good time to set intentions.
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for your greatest good and the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Namaste
K
Friday, September 18, 2009
Day 4: It Is What It Is
Connections:
Herbalist student who is talking to her teacher and hopefully will want to help a contact in Malawi.
At breakfast met a gentleman who is writing an E book on social networking. He gave me some great insights.
Progress:
Met with an friend J and talked about my project and she gave me great advise and direction bolstering my energy. Started building a website and this is making me modify and fine tune my ideas as well as defining my skill set and objectives.
Check in, are you holding to past resentments? Honestly look and see if you are ready to move gently forward to presences - to Fully Live Now. : )
Please say a prayer or hold a positive thought for the greatest good of all.
Thanks
Nomaste
K
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Day 3 Grateful
H in admissions at a university told me I was focused and had good concepts that had merit. I might customarily downplay this vote of confidence but between us, it felt great to have someone affirm my thoughts. Thank You H you helped me. (Yes, of course I told her)
The second university I called circled back to Malawi, Africa. The Ad woman (Very kind) works with a circle of women and wants information on how to work with other women groups they have been searching. I am going to put her in touch with M from the trip. (Interesting let’s track that and see what come – additional connections)
My work day was stressful but I am working very hard to see the meaning behind my turmoil in an attempt to see the buttons being pushed so I can grow. It is difficult at times to take a step back and see the drama when in it. I fully recognize that I choose to stay in that emotion, and there lies the lesson. Why? What’s behind the emotion?
So I am grateful today, for both the good and the uncomfortable. It’s all about the growth.
Perhaps today you could think about what you’re grateful for and if possible tell someone.
Thanks
Nomaste
K
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Day 2 Story
The second issue today reflected a more of a cognitive thought a co-worker had that he owned. The thought was holding him back. What's connection between the quest and the story. I have to be aware of the thoughts to transform them and write my new story.
Today I looked into two PhD programs. I have a business plan to use to create my own.
I got accepted into a class that I believe will be helpful.
Being stuck in an emotion is a choice.
Say a prayer or hold a positive thought and throw it into the greatest good for all pot.
Thanks
Nomaste
K
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Day 1 Wake Up Call
I was watching the Biggest Loser tonight (let that joke go-ok one time LOSER) and the thing that struck me was something Jillian the trainer said to the largest ever contestant who was struggling through her workout and on the brink of giving up. Jillian told/screamed, she would not support the old Story running through the female contestant's head. Jillian told the contestant to change her mind it was a choice and only she could make it. Her mind is conditioned to the story of failure, or the very least stuck in the image she created of herself.
My Questions:
Does transformation start by changing your mind? How do you change your mind?
What story have you constructed for yourself thus far?
The Search is on!
My Step for today I started the blog and confirmed availablitiy to teach a Reiki class. Sent the blog to supportive friends to keep myself honest. (YIKES)
Nomaste
K
Day 1 The Commitment
This blog is the tool/vehicle I am going to use to explore a plan or strategy for a germ of an idea I have. Over the next 30 days (and yes I did get the idea from the movie Julie/Julia- imitation is the highest form of flattery) I am going to pray everyday, take one action step, and be alert to the messages being sent to me through my life circumstance (that ought to confuse some people) and write my steps and the progress to see if I can pull (myself together) and the universe in to help.
What you out there can do for me today is please pray to the God of your heart for my greatest good, and the greatest good for all. (Oh and do 1 nice thing for someone for no reason at all/change happens one nano second at a time let's be the change)
Thanks
Nomaste
K
PS I'm feeling more then a little exposed